Cherie Beck

Here are two of my twitters, back to back from this week:

• SpiralEyes living inside and through my emotional body is rich. It takes mental discipline, but from the other side….it’s well worth it! 12 minutes ago from web
• SpiralEyes is feeling…mostly sadness that at times slips to despair, at so many gaps. about 9 hours ago from web

My competence with my emotional body has been taking more prominence in my life. Oh, it’s been increasing since 2001 after I returned home from Retreat 4, of the CoActive Space Leadership development programming. It was during that 5 day event as the climax of the entire 9 month course that my emotions began to override a well honed ability to mentally abstract, story or otherwise repress or shutdown my emotional experience as a human being.

I find it to be a practice, for sure. First to let emotions rise to the surface, then to express them (responsibly), to just feel them, to learn from them, to let them inform me, to share them with others, and lately, I’ve been working with communicating with emotions while letting the run through me from a state of love. It’s from this state of love that total spectrum of emotions is accessible and can bring about transcendent consequences. It also has a powerful impact, so it’s often like playing with dynamite. I’m still working on it…so stay tuned.

What I found in the last couple years is that permission to be emotional, without a story is an invaluable gift. Two years ago there was a period during February and March that if you would have asked me what my hobby was I would have told you, crying.

Last month, my friend called me dealing with mental constructs of her own that were breaking down, and she really just needed to cry. I said, come on over, to the House of Emotion, as I had just spent several hours opening to my own tidal wave of emotions and the house was “primed.” That permission was all she needed and she was off riding her own wave.

It’s usually a strong indication I’ve found one of my edges, a limitation or a boundary if my emotional body is activated. Since living at the edge of myself, expanding, breaking through and transcending my limitations is a life strategy for me; navigating through my emotional body is part of the experience…it’s a good thing!